Well, am now presently staying at my grandma's place so don't have any internet connection!! This means I'm typing my entries, saving them and posting them the following day. Please be patient with me k?? Thankies.. :)

Friday, 4th August.. 21 days before I fly off to Boston!! Know that time will fly past really fast and I'll be on the plane there before I know it. Am now in the midst of getting ready to leave and spending time with my friends. Feel like I'm busier now than during my internship. Heehee. But I thank God for the time I can spend with each and everyone of you. Must spend time together now or I'll regret it when I get homesick.

Have been praying about the exchange and the time there. God, please give me a roommate whom I can be a blessing too and vice versa. Still seeking and asking God for the exact purpose of why He wants me to be there at this particular time. Want to know His great plan for me!!

Am now trying my best to do up my blog. Like the skin? Think the praying angel is so pretty. She reminds me of what my guardian angel is doing for me in the spiritual. Constantly praying and interceding for me. Being a computer idiot, I have to say that I feel quite accomplished. Will try to make it look as pretty as possible. :)

As I filled up the portion on what my dreams and desires were, was reminded of a verse God gave me during the G12 conference earlier this year.

Isaiah 51:1-3
"Listen to me, you who pursue righteousness & who seek the Lord: Look to the rock from which you were cut & to the quarry from which you were hewn; look to Abraham, your father, & to Sarah, who gave you birth.
When I called him he was but one, & I blessed him & made him many.
The Lord will surely comfort Zion & will look with compassion on all her ruins; He will make her deserts like Eden, her wastelands like the garden of the Lord. Joy & gladness will be found in her, thanksgiving & the sound of singing."

After meditating on the verses and asking the Holy Spirit to provide new revelations, I've learnt a number of things:

1. Verse 1 tells us who this word is for. Believe that the mentioned blessings are specifically for those who consciously seek Him and choose to live a life pleasing to Him. It is not for those who choose to go their own way or for those who live a life full of disobedience and sin. God is talking to us, His sons and daughters and we are to be God-focused.

2. Verse 2 tells us what His blessing is. As with Abraham, God will use us as a launching pad of blessing, bringing about fruitfulness in our lives. An interesting point to note is the fact that when God called Abraham, Abraham was alone, a measly 1 in number. Yet God kept His promise to Abraham. This shows that just like for Abraham, God only needs 1 person to do big things through. And that person can be me or you.

3. Verse 3 tells us how He will bless us. God will watch over us with care and He lovingly support us. He will comfort us in times of distress and feels for us when we face failures. He can and will make use of the little that we have to make it beautiful for His glory. God turns deserts and wastelands into places with lush and green vegetation, gardens brimming with life. Shouldn't we take a moment to praise Him and give Him thanks for what He is doing and will do in the future?

I remember that this passage was given to me by God in response to my asking Him for direction in life. I take this as God's promise to me of things to come. That when I make the choice to pursue Him and to lead a holy life, He will bless me with fruitfulness. Not just 1 or 2 offspring, but the full-blown 'my cup runneth over' type of multiplication. As Gen 17:16 says "I will bless her so that she will be the mother of nations; kings of peoples will come from her." My response? "Thank you Lord!"

I rejoice and look forward to the times ahead, knowing that in times of failure or defeat, I have my Father to confide in, Him to seek comfort from. I feel loved by the knowledge that God's heart aches when He sees mine aching. But mostly, I am excited that He can use the incomplete, helpless and broken pieces of me to do something great and mighty in His name, for His glory.

So Lord, my prayer today is that You'll use me and remind me of Your promise. Keep me walking down the path of righteousness and push me to run after You, not Your blessings. Cause me to find sufficiency in You, to rejoice in all things just because You are God. I want my life to be a miracle!! Amen.

+ AMEN